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04-24-2009, 06:20 PM
Here are two writings I did today in school while feeling depressed:
"Sometimes I feel so alone. I am surrounded by smiling faces yet I am the one without one. I know I should be happy but I just cant feel that emotion it seems. I wish I could end it all. Ill be walking upstairs at my school and get the urge to fling myself over the railing. No one gets me. They always just tell me to get over it. They act like its no big deal and that I should be able to get past it. I cant though, I just cant. I am beginning to hate myself. I am so pathetic and worthless. I dont deserve to live. I dont fit in, I feel like I dont belong on this planet. I wish I were an alien, at least then I would have an excuse to feel this way. Oh Gods please end my suffering now. I look at others problems and look at mine and all I can say is im weak. If im this weak how can I make it through life? Im not needed, all I do is cause pain. I feel like im burdening my friends with my problems. I know people are just being polite. No one really cares how I feel. I hope the end comes soon."
"Depression....sometimes it makes me feel sad, sometimes mad, and even numb at times. Why, I always ask. Why me? What did I do wrong to deserve this? I often think I must just be weak because I cant deal with this life. Why cant I? My life right now isnt that bad. I feel like im losing my sanity, like im going to fall off the deep end. But will that fall be literal or figurative? How much will it hurt, or how much better will it feel? Life seems dark and hopeless right now. People always tell me things will get better but will they? How do you know? What if it never does, then what? It would be better if I were dead. I dont even enjoy life. Whats the point of living just to live? Why continue living if you dont enjoy it and all you feel is pain or nothing. I hope it all ends soon, I dont want to be here in this physical body anymore. I dont care what happens after I die. Its my idea to die and its this I shall pay for if it need be. Gods please let it all end soon."
I know their not too good but they were written as a stream of thoughts not as a poem.
~Light~
"Sometimes I feel so alone. I am surrounded by smiling faces yet I am the one without one. I know I should be happy but I just cant feel that emotion it seems. I wish I could end it all. Ill be walking upstairs at my school and get the urge to fling myself over the railing. No one gets me. They always just tell me to get over it. They act like its no big deal and that I should be able to get past it. I cant though, I just cant. I am beginning to hate myself. I am so pathetic and worthless. I dont deserve to live. I dont fit in, I feel like I dont belong on this planet. I wish I were an alien, at least then I would have an excuse to feel this way. Oh Gods please end my suffering now. I look at others problems and look at mine and all I can say is im weak. If im this weak how can I make it through life? Im not needed, all I do is cause pain. I feel like im burdening my friends with my problems. I know people are just being polite. No one really cares how I feel. I hope the end comes soon."
"Depression....sometimes it makes me feel sad, sometimes mad, and even numb at times. Why, I always ask. Why me? What did I do wrong to deserve this? I often think I must just be weak because I cant deal with this life. Why cant I? My life right now isnt that bad. I feel like im losing my sanity, like im going to fall off the deep end. But will that fall be literal or figurative? How much will it hurt, or how much better will it feel? Life seems dark and hopeless right now. People always tell me things will get better but will they? How do you know? What if it never does, then what? It would be better if I were dead. I dont even enjoy life. Whats the point of living just to live? Why continue living if you dont enjoy it and all you feel is pain or nothing. I hope it all ends soon, I dont want to be here in this physical body anymore. I dont care what happens after I die. Its my idea to die and its this I shall pay for if it need be. Gods please let it all end soon."
I know their not too good but they were written as a stream of thoughts not as a poem.
~Light~