it hurts it hurt

[jennymarie]

jenny and Jenny appreciate the hugs. But the fact is Jenny doesn't feel like Jenny completely and ISN'T who she needs to be. She is who she needs to be but doesn't seem to express that self in a way that adequately conveys who she is. Jenny is going to do what she usually does when life feels too real and disappointing. Jenny is going to a movie maybe two and disappear behind her eyes into the screen the kinda the same way she looked out from 'his' eyes for most of her life time. Some how after a movie the disappointment and pain is gone and she feels more like herself - free of morbid reflection and mind fucking herself but alone BUT safe.