Let's see ....

[jumper]

I guess, I'm not in the right mood now to create the thread, that I was going to create, and I'm not sure when I'll be. So, I might as well just address the "Why"s (and "Why not"s) for now.

First of all, I apologize if anyone feels, that the very idea of looking for a girlfriend / boyfriend in a suicide-related forum is a bad taste, annoying or even offensive.

But what exactly is so tasteless, annoying or offensive about it?

Is the very idea of a chronically suicidal person looking for a significant other so bad ?
( Or is it so bad if they look just for a date ? Personally, I do not, but sure I don't judge people who do. )

Or is it just a wrong place ?

Some say, we'll just drag each other deeper into depression, but doesn't the very existence of this forum speak against it, or at least in favor of taking this risk?

Some say, that people with suicidal thoughts are (likely to be) unable to maintain a relationship.
Basically, they say, that we should first cure ourselves, before we look for love.
My take on this:
I for one don't look for a cure from within.
Some of the reasons for considering to end my life are innate attributes of my soul, and I don't want to (and even can't) change it.
Some of the reasons are related to certain unfortunate events and unfortunate decisions I made - I don't want any help "to cope" with it either. These bad things grow so strong only because the good, enjoyable, exciting things are too few and too weak.
The only thing, that would make my stay in this world worth it, would be if I found a kindred soul, and there was at least a bit of physical attraction.

Is it so weird to wish to find a significant other, who shares your believes regarding the right to die?
Or can understand the beauty of the abyss, void, nothingness?

I think this is a good idea, though this site is so small, I doubt I will find anyone and I've basically given up on the idea. I find that any woman I get to know, who may be interested in me over the Internet, is quickly turned off once we actually spend time together. I am not "fun." I have a serious mental illness.

I hate living alone, and like you, I believe if I found someone I deeply cared about who also deeply cared about me, I would stop seriously considering suicide.