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[Shivering Sands]

I got your message, Dragon, and had to respond. I'm sorry that running the board has become such a thankless task. I won't make any effusive promises to post more; I haven't got much energy, and nearly all of it has to go toward staying alive and employable. I am reminded, however, not to take this place for granted. I'm very grateful that it exists. I've just gone through another intense nightmarish period, and I thought of the forum but was paradoxically too anxious to post. I'm afraid of nearly everything, even when things aren't this bad, so I suppose being afraid to post shouldn't be a surprise. Anyway, I just want to thank you for keeping the forum going. Yes, it is most definitely the only place for people like us. Sometimes I positively want to snarl when I read the usual "if you're feeling suicidal" stuff. It can make feel like I'm not part of the same species as the writer. But I'm not alone. There are altogether too many of us, I suspect. We're just forced into silence because (pretty understandably) almost nobody wants to deal with our pain or the problems we present.

Again, Dragon, thank you for being here and for running this board. I would understand if you no longer felt the effort worthwhile--but please know that the board has made a permanent difference in my life, whether or not you continue to run it.

Shivering Sands