12-25-2017, 12:25 AM
Well, good news is that I had a better day today with this. I wasn't irritable, angry or combative. I did think a lot about how pointless life is though (at least mine) and still don't really care about connecting to anybody which is not my usual at all. Usually I am lonely which means at least I am trying to reach out and connect to the world, to somebody, or something but I've discovered a way around this...which is to attempt to push the world away. If the world doesn't want me, then I don't want it. Why try?
I did feel some enjoyment being around my family this Christmas Eve though which is good.
I did feel some enjoyment being around my family this Christmas Eve though which is good.
"I want to thrive, not just survive." - Thrive, Switchfoot