[Trigger] Death

[death_is_my_choice]

Ash was given up as a baby.  Ash has depression, anxiety, and possibly is bipolar.  Ash feels unloved and unwanted every single day of her life.  Ash is surrounded by people who say they care about her, but she still feels alone, because every time life gets tough they all abandon her.  Ash has all these mixed feelings, and doesn't know how to express them, so she cuts herself. All the time.  She sometimes goes a month or two without doing it.  She throws away her blades, but always seems to find something else.  She tells other people not to hurt themselves, or to be depressed, but she is a fucking hypocrite.  Ash doesn't feel like she has anything to live with.  She is constantly being called a slut, and being told that she should kill herself because she is a piece of shit.  She is finally ready to go.  She wants to do it this weekend, and is completely ready.  She knows she might hurt a few people, but mostly people will be happy that she FINALLY will off herself.  She knows how she wants to go, and she is accepting death with open arms.  She is ready.