[Trigger] Death

[death_is_my_choice]

The Dragon would have to question whether Ash is really a hypocrite - it seems as if hypocrite has two definitions, one where someone criticizes others for doing things that the hypocrite does in secret, the other is where someone criticizes others for things the hypocrite does openly.  The first, the Dragon thinks, is undoubtedly hypocritical, the second - not so much.  Is Ash a hypocrite?  That depends a lot on how she presents herself, the Dragon thinks.  Is she saying that others shouldn't do what she does to try to prevent them from feeling the pain she does?  There's nothing hypocritical in that ... is there?

We all judge ourselves - often we judge ourselves in the reflection of what others think of us or what others say they think of us.  Does Ash personally feel she's a slut or does she just enjoy the feeling she derives from having sex?  Too often, the Dragon thinks, we're much too critical of those who seem to enjoy having sex because our own backgrounds preclude us from that same enjoyment.

The Dragon is sorry that Ash isn't here, she sounds like just the type of person who would fit with us.  On the other hand, DIMC (we abbreviate a lot of user names here, please don't be offended) it's good of you to speak up for her.  She sounds like she needs a real friend.

@death_is_my_choice Welcome to our forum and I'm sorry if the Dragon seems to have gotten a little verbose with his answer.

Ash is still here, but she doesn't know how long she can continue like this.  She wants to know what death feels like, but she is also terrified to try, because she is scared of failure.  She wants to succeed at something and life, and this seems like a good option