looking for a friend, especially in New York

[SuperHeroAnimals]

That's really cool to hear, and I'm glad you've been able to form that kind of a friendship! It's also ironic that you would mention that, because I have a story I'd like to share.

I email a girl from Sweden. I met her in March of last year on an anxiety site that I tried for a while, and she's just the sweetest person I've ever met. She really suffers from anxiety and slight depression so we have only ever talked in text, but her messages are something that I really look forward to. Last year around July I left her a message saying I wanted to die, and not long after that some police showed up at the door. They called for an ambulance to take me to the hospital, and while waiting they asked if I knew someone from Sweden. Of course I knew right away that there could have only been one person to have made that call, and I've thought of her as someone really special ever since then. She's the only person I've ever known that has actually done something for me, and while I hate to admit that I threw away the chance at help that she gave me I will NEVER forget what she did. I cry thinking about her because she's just that special to me, and I'm not sure what it is but the feeling I have for her is something completely different from anyone I've ever known. Just reading you mention Sweden made me cry because this girl is all I ever think of when I see anything to do with Sweden.

Hope you two are still in touch!

By the way, while living in California, I once had to call 911 for a suicidal friend in Washington state. It was a big deal, 'cause you cannot just call 911 in a different state, or even get an operator to connect you. So, what I had to do was, I called my 911, worked to convince them that, yes, I really did have a friend in Washington dying at that very moment, and then they connected me with 911 in her part of Washington. At that point, I then had to start all over and convince them that I really did have a friend semi-conscious and dying. It was hard because I only knew her name and phone number; I didn't have an address to provide, so they had to use a reverse directory.

Anyhow, my point is, if it was that hard for me, a US citizen, to get 911 help for my friend in another state, I can only imagine how difficult it was for your Swedish friend to get you help. You have one good friend, there!

My phone is merely a utility, so I only briefly text/talk when absolutely necessary. Hate phones, for some reason. I do email, though. I am great at email!