Looking for a REAL connection

[Pattie]

Looking for a friend. Looking for a friendship where I can just be myself. no judgement. I feel like i've lived my life without any true connection with someone, and whenever I felt that it was it, it turned out to be a lie, because people lie, even to themselves. I would like a friendship that is void of pride and ego. A friendship that we can talk about anything and everything, from our deepest hurts to our deepest desires,  nonjudgmental and real. I don't even know if that exists, cause I have yet to find it in 35 years, but i'm giving it one last shot. There's something in me that keeps saying this person is out there..this person who longs for this real and raw connection with another too.. maybe that's what keeps me here..like i can feel you out there..just beyond my reach..while you are feeling it too.  Who knows where it will take us...maybe to the truth about ourselves, a discovery and authenticity, that we have yet to find...maybe it will take us to a reason..to hold on.

Hope this goes through.
Serenity, would love the same.  
I have had good, solid, longterm friendships, and know the value they have.
I'm not sure what has happened to change that, but I have been looking for that again for a very long time.  I am tired of feeling invisible.  It's probably the hardest part of staying alive.
However we can contact would be great.
I think this is the first time I've posted, and not totally familiar with things.