Understood

[jman197]

Jman just feels alone, even in a crowd of people. He feels like he deserves the pain he gets, that it's karmic justice for all the pain he's caused. Jman is tired of being alone but won't do anything to change that because he doesn't believe anyone could love him. He's a monster, or so he thinks. He doesn't even love himself so how could anyone love him. Jman doesn't believe right now that he will ever be able to survive without someone living with him because he can't stand to not have someone in the house with him, even if they never talk to him it's just the presence of someone. His roommate says that he has good in him, but he doesn't see it. All Jman sees is a mistake, a failure, someone that deserves death because maybe the world would be a better place without him.