You

[iocaine0351]

You stole my sanity.
You snatched away my humanity,
dragged me down into depravity,
destroyed my masculinity.

And while I rage
against your grasp,
You pervert
my stupid ass.

I try and try
to find escape;
terrified, I recognize
your gnarled shape

Coming to drag
me down again;
perversion becomes
my only friend.

I've nowhere left
to hide my mind,
trapped, cornered,
bound, confined.

Resigned now
to accept my fate,
come, addiction,
no longer wait

to claim your victim
once again,
my addiction becomes
my final friend.

I cannot wait
to staunch my breath,
and give in finally
to friendly death.

[Lurker.In.The.Night]

You know Forums.psychcentral.com has an EXCELLENT subforum for victims of abuse. The people there are compassionate and kind. Personally, I stick around the depression part of the forum because that's what I identify with.

But I think it'd do you some good to read the subforum...lets see if i can find you the exact link for the subforum that I am speaking of:

http://forums.psychcentral.com/forumdisplay.php?f=14

Oh there is also a subforum for addictions:

http://forums.psychcentral.com/forumdisplay.php?f=32

I hope this helps you my friend.  :H:

[Lurker.In.The.Night]

Oh and here is the depression section that I visit when I have a relapse into depression:

http://forums.psychcentral.com/forumdisplay.php?f=6

If you look close enough, in the depression section there is a sub-sub section entitled Depression Success Stories. I helped create that.

I hope you feel better soon.  I know it sucks to feel down and upset about things.  :-\

:H:

[iocaine0351]

Oh and here is the depression section that I visit when I have a relapse into depression:

http://forums.psychcentral.com/forumdisplay.php?f=6

If you look close enough, in the depression section there is a sub-sub section entitled Depression Success Stories. I helped create that.

I hope you feel better soon.  I know it sucks to feel down and upset about things.  :-\

:H:

Thanks for the kind words and concern.  I will feel better, eventually.  Then worse.  Then better.  Then worse.  Stupid rollercoaster.

[perpetual darkness]

Damn that roller coaster!  I hope you are holding up, friend.  :H2: